YouRs tRulY
ShaN YeoW ShiYuN
School.
KellOcK,
STC,
Singapore Polytechnic
D.O.B 080690
My L.A.M.B
My Music
My BABES
My FAMilY
Its all me baby, deal with it
WishLisT...
I Basically get AlmoSt all That I want..eVen WhEn i d0nT, Im stIlL a lucky girl
aLL i Wish !s f0r My Family And FrieNds to Be HAppy N healThy
Friday, November 21, 2008
trying hard to lose all that weight.... and i wonder why and what i actually do all these for... it really just goes to show that im so insecure with myself that i hafta try and look good on the outside just to hide all these insecurities... but who am i kidding... deep down, im still this stupid fat girl who doesnt feel at all fabulous... the cards didnt need to tell me what may predicted.... somewhere inside of me... its all been answered for... i've known it all but i just chose to cover it thinking i could be strong... but deep down... i aint that unwavered afterall....
who am i trying to impress....
who am i trying to impress....
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 10:12 PM
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
this is not good.... my mum thinks that the guy im dating is gay.... and totally objects my dating him.... worse still.. it might develop to something more than that of which the idea she is already not happy with what's more with a guy she doesnt approve... mum... HE'S NOT GAY!!!!!!! he's just jumpy and bouncy... he's more gentleman than can be ok.... OMG!!!! you are PUTTING ME IN A SPOT!!!!!!!!!!@.@ what am i to do...
o by the way... HE'S BACK!!!!!!!!@.@ hi i saw his "hi" message i totally flipped!!! my legs even went jelly when i was reading it and walking on the way back home.... I MISS HIM.... but i couldnt say it out.... because im still not sure where this is heading... for us.. and for him.... and me...... respectively.. but like after him.. im just not interested in any others anymore... at least not yet...
I dont know..... what's going on and what's going to happen.... but i sure hope things turns out nice and right.... i dont want any hurting involved in this be it for him or for mum... hurt me it's alright... just save the hurt from them....
o by the way... HE'S BACK!!!!!!!!@.@ hi i saw his "hi" message i totally flipped!!! my legs even went jelly when i was reading it and walking on the way back home.... I MISS HIM.... but i couldnt say it out.... because im still not sure where this is heading... for us.. and for him.... and me...... respectively.. but like after him.. im just not interested in any others anymore... at least not yet...
I dont know..... what's going on and what's going to happen.... but i sure hope things turns out nice and right.... i dont want any hurting involved in this be it for him or for mum... hurt me it's alright... just save the hurt from them....
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 9:38 PM
Monday, November 17, 2008
i have so much to say.... yet its so difficult for me to say... i guess its because there's so much that i dont know how to organize all these thoughts... he went away last monday... i thought i needed these 10 days for me to think it through... after these 8 days, i realised it was stupid that i even thought i needed to think.. he said he had lots to tell me.. but he couldnt put them to words... i very much want to hear them... to hear what he has to say...
i think god's making fun of me... when no one's interested in me, there's really no one. otherwise there'd be a bunch coming after me.... now these bunch can be separated into 2 dimensions... 1 is the bunch that are really total jerks or have horrible character. the second is the bunch of elites.. ok maybe not that wow, but hey, they are good..... usually the former one always applies to me and this might be the first time the latter is happening to me but its really not nice to be stuck in such a situation.... because i mean hey its really not nice to go around breaking people's hearts even if they are jerks but its even worse to have to break the hearts of gentlemen....so God, please, if next time you decide that i should be rewarded, reward me in an easier way... maybe just give me one good one? the others i wouldn't mind not having the rest already and you can make it up for my family's health and well- being or you can actually decide to reward me at a later time and just keep my family safe and sound and healthy and fine in every single sense of that word... =)
i think god's making fun of me... when no one's interested in me, there's really no one. otherwise there'd be a bunch coming after me.... now these bunch can be separated into 2 dimensions... 1 is the bunch that are really total jerks or have horrible character. the second is the bunch of elites.. ok maybe not that wow, but hey, they are good..... usually the former one always applies to me and this might be the first time the latter is happening to me but its really not nice to be stuck in such a situation.... because i mean hey its really not nice to go around breaking people's hearts even if they are jerks but its even worse to have to break the hearts of gentlemen....so God, please, if next time you decide that i should be rewarded, reward me in an easier way... maybe just give me one good one? the others i wouldn't mind not having the rest already and you can make it up for my family's health and well- being or you can actually decide to reward me at a later time and just keep my family safe and sound and healthy and fine in every single sense of that word... =)
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 10:20 PM
i wish upon the stars above
to send my signals to my love
no matter how far, no matter how near,
i pray my messages he would hear
Please be safe and come back home
come back to me and make me whole
each night i go to bed and think
the number of days till you return
im sitting, standing, wishing and hoping
of all our thoughts and hopes and dreams
so until you come back to me
that's where my heart will be
to send my signals to my love
no matter how far, no matter how near,
i pray my messages he would hear
Please be safe and come back home
come back to me and make me whole
each night i go to bed and think
the number of days till you return
im sitting, standing, wishing and hoping
of all our thoughts and hopes and dreams
so until you come back to me
that's where my heart will be
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 10:08 PM
Thursday, November 13, 2008
i need you
i miss you
to hell with the 10 days
make them go away
i thought it'd do me good
but i barely made it through
the first day you took off
the very day i lost my cool
funny how i kept it while i was talking to you
funny how i lost it when i was spacing out in school
these 10 days i wanted to let me think it through
these 10 days so redundant now all i want is you
baby please come back to me
baby please keep what you meant
baby please remember what you said
and baby please say it again
counting down the days
awaiting your return
living without your frequent calls
baby my heart's starting to burn
all the things in everyday life
all the things i pass
all the things i see and do
baby they remind me of you
crazy how im missing you when i needed 10 days to think
crazy how i've to take this long to realise it's you i need
i miss you
to hell with the 10 days
make them go away
i thought it'd do me good
but i barely made it through
the first day you took off
the very day i lost my cool
funny how i kept it while i was talking to you
funny how i lost it when i was spacing out in school
these 10 days i wanted to let me think it through
these 10 days so redundant now all i want is you
baby please come back to me
baby please keep what you meant
baby please remember what you said
and baby please say it again
counting down the days
awaiting your return
living without your frequent calls
baby my heart's starting to burn
all the things in everyday life
all the things i pass
all the things i see and do
baby they remind me of you
crazy how im missing you when i needed 10 days to think
crazy how i've to take this long to realise it's you i need
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 8:58 PM
BaBes 0f My liFe
ShouT iT 0ut BaBy I heAr y0u
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FirsT y0u madE me Sm!le
TheN y0u madE me CrY
y0u make this HaRd 0n Me
EvEn juSt to tRy
SunBuRns HurT y0u baD
bUt onLy skIn TheY make u SheD
My HeArT y0u got h0ld aNd dId somEthiNg reAl baD
NoW i woNder h0w lonG it'd taKe f0r Me t0 gEt it BaCk
th!s SiTe i DedIcaTed f0r th0se have and had beeN
To Let fReNs n LovEd onEs kNoW tHe Past and PresEnt Me...