d!rtY liTTle SecRetS

Sunday, August 19, 2007

gone with the wind

is the pain once felt

past is the love

that was bitter sweet hell

what is left

are the memories sweet, bitter and pain

but all of that

is nothing but a folder in a part of the brains

afraid no more

am i to love again

but afraid there of

that my love don't find the way

boldly wishing for my prince

ever so charming ever so sweet

to ride a stallion

and come galloping for me

though in reality

fairytales dont happen

a princess is entitled

to a little comforting fantasy

life's been kind

to the princess recently

so the princess' fine

just living peacefully

heaven knows

when this serenity will end

so behold

whatever lies ahead

blessed is she

to have friends and family suporting her

in times of needs

for a shoulder or a hand

all that's left

is for her to seek

a kind of happiness

only she can seal

ok... im sorta done crapping there... have an econs test up on thursday and im watching tv.... i think i really dont know what the word "die" really means.... but anyway... i really love this show... extreme make over... home edition.. its these kinda people that makes the world a better place... though they cant save the whole world, they try their best to do whatever they can within their means to make peoples lives better... and these people they are helpin, are those really in need of help and comfort and there are some of those that in their own small little way, try to help others..... its really heart warming to see these people trying to help... especially this episode? its about this little 8 year old girl who's down with cancer wanting the make over team to help the hospital instead of her house to do a make over because the rooms there are so bleak that it makes patients like her feel even worse.. so in the end the make over team decided to give them a new home without telling them because they sent them to take charge of the makeover of the hospital... these people, are those angels on earth... they are angels without wings... they are all around you but you dont see them... and whatever they do for you, are sometimes gone unnoticed and unappreciated.. because the angels you can think of are only those with the 2 wings and the angelic halo above their heads.. i wish i had it in my ability to be like the design team... to help those who needed help... and to try make a world a better place.... if only life was like the books where everything comes so easily... even after a thunderstorm... there'd still be a splendid sunny day... and that success and money come so easily... if only these would happen in reality... and now here i am wondering what exactly is it that i want in life.... seems to be always the case...... maybe i should stop thinking and start studying lolx.. then i wouldnt have the time to even think of this...

I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 2:19 PM

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

WEE!!!! went to Sentosa on Sun with ZOE!! and her buncha friends! its been eons since i set foot on the beach.... Gosh it was so fun!!! but the freaking tide was so high and the waves were so big.... OH MAN!!! IM SO DUMB!!!! we dug a T junction tunnel and it looked so good but i forgot to take pics of it!!!! HOW DUMB CAN I BE!!!! ok anyway... in the end the tunnel was destroyed by the waves.. anyway before that there was this korean family... gosh they made this REALLY big sand ball... like really... ball.... and they played some game... we got so interested that we actually went to make our own but... lolx no fight man... theirs was like rock solid... in the end ours got smashed lolx. oh did i mention i dont even know any of her friends?? ok except for 1.. kian hong i think... whom i've seen before lolx but well in the end it was ok... at first there was only 5 of us Kian hong, De long, Jie liang.. i think... lolx and the both of us. then she coincidentally met her two seniors, guan and zander who then joined us.. then came 2 others... boon chuan and xiang kee... i think lolx had hell of a time man.... and those guys... typical... checking out on babes and all... omg there was these 2 gals... brazillian??? i think.... omg... they were wearing the G-s man... its... 0.0.. ok then... we went home late cause we went shopping after leaving the beach... and ....WE WENT TO THE PET SHOP!!! lolx... anyway fast forward.... i seriously dont know how dumb a princess could get... ok i had a headache so i went to bed only to wake up at... 6? i think... to find myself with a SPlitting headache so i went to take 2 panadol acti fast and went back to bed... but when i woke up at 9, i figured i still had a headache so i took 2 more... and i got me overdosed.... it was hell before my EC test man.... i went to the toilet 4 times to vomit... then after which i wanted to wait for my cousin to end school to go to her house but she had a project meeting so.. in the end i had to come home... with the help of this very kind gentleman by the name of afiq lolx. he said he'd feel guilty if he didnt send me home so i said but it wasnt his fault or responsibility or anything but he said... but i know you're not well so if anything happens to you i wont feel right lolx... trust him to be so nice when i only know him for officially a week lolx anyway... i went home with his help and stayed in bed till tyra banks was halfway through her show and es was on the phone with me lolx... dinner didnt stay in and i puked 2 more times after which.... and now my not- so- ok- throat is hurting even more... and what's worse is i have a mygraine.... this is bad... and... i have itab tomorrow but i havent studied for it yet... im so going to die... only the heavens above can save me now....

I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 12:54 PM