YouRs tRulY
ShaN YeoW ShiYuN
School.
KellOcK,
STC,
Singapore Polytechnic
D.O.B 080690
My L.A.M.B
My Music
My BABES
My FAMilY
Its all me baby, deal with it
WishLisT...
I Basically get AlmoSt all That I want..eVen WhEn i d0nT, Im stIlL a lucky girl
aLL i Wish !s f0r My Family And FrieNds to Be HAppy N healThy
Monday, July 30, 2007
life is fucking screwed up now.... its like friends? what the fuck screw off... friends arent those who leave you hanging once they pushed you in to something. they dont leave you to fight the war own your own and go hang out somewhere else.... screw this shit.... they can just go to hell... i miss PM... i really really miss them.... at least no matter how much we quarrel or have disputes we still stick together through times.... unlike those who just pull you into something and leave you in a lurch. I really feel like crying now i just wish so much that all of you were here..... i could have used the time to go study instead of doing this stupid stuff and going on stage later to make a fool outta myself.... and who am i doing all these for? for them.... and where and what are they gonna do later? go hang out together and study together WITHOUT ME. fuck this shit. Im never gonna do anything for the sake of anyone anymore... even if it makes me selfish... cause no matter what i do for people... its just not appreciated. screw it. cursing isnt actually favourable in this blog anymore but now.... its really starting to become a norm whenever im gonna speak of this....
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 11:14 AM
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Great..... im down with the bug.... wonder which stupid idiot passed it to me.... its not exactly very ideal to be throwing out phlegm with blood and having a running nose that is blocked all at the same time and a fever that perpetually going off, a day before the finals of the singing competition..... damn i hate being sick.... oh and what's more is that i have problems finding a minus 1 for the song i wanna sing but how am i going to sing with a stuck nose and a stupid hoarse voice? how much suckier could a pirncess' life get.... hur im a princess in my own world so shit things can happen anytime.....and when i mean shit... its really shit.... damn for once i wish i was wrong... im not complaining about it.. ok maybe i am but im its more like im already accustomed to it cause it's became my daily life since god knows when... but well im dealing with it cause no matter how sucky it gets... a l'il some'in some'in will occur to make the day a l'il better lolx.... though its just the memory of another day prior to that... it still makes me go gaga lolx.
like let's see.... it happened on thursday but that l'il occurrance linger in my mind till now... i mean not that i purposely went to think of it but it just popped up in my mind lolx. wonderful things the brain does.. well... lets see... friday... was there anything? oh yea. going to the doctor, getting the medicine and then going home to sleep only for half an hour and then heading back to school for training.. we played fish net and first aid band lolx if thats what its called lolx and stupid clement(captain) had to target me when i was one of the two last people who didnt get caught... used to think he was scary and i hated him for being so rigid and always following the book... but yea i can see why he's doing that.. if he doesnt, no one's gonna keep the club organised and going like it is now... oh and i didnt wear the uniform cause it was still wet from washing and i was supposed to be punished and all and especially when nick(president) said his dried in a day so when we were about to head to the stadium i told him i'll owe him the punishment he cause im sick he said haiyo relax!! which means i wasnt gonna get punished!! lolx and on the way to the court cause the stadium had no place... we passed a track filled with earth worms...... ewww...... so naturally i went jumping round the track instead of walking cause of my digust for creepy crawlies he challenged and said if i were to step on any of them i was to down 20 lolx then later reaching the court stupid nick acted like he grabbed some crawlie onto his hand and scared me with it!! bugger... lolx. then was training... lolx gary almost lost it cause i was always training when i was unwell lolx so... i had to be a good girl for once lolx but i ended up training again lolx but not the tidoeus ones lolx. not that the rest of training was really tideous lolx... and *SIGHS!!!* i was chosen for this national day thingy to perform..... and s we had to practice for it.... lolx but it was kinda fun though lolx... then i went home.... and stayed up till 1 just to watch the 2 cute hunky brothers in supernatural and ended up freaking myself out.... lolx
then yesterday.... nothing spectacular happened but daddy bought back a whole lota dvds and i only had to watch dream girls to cry a bucket.... then was DREAMCATCHER!!!! first i didnt get the show but after .... boy was it interesting... and i realised that EARL hickey .. that lead in my name is EARL, if im not wrong.... was actually kinda handsome without that einstein hairdo and bushy mustache lolx... and this is by far the first time i've blogged so much about what happened to my day(s)..... lolx
like let's see.... it happened on thursday but that l'il occurrance linger in my mind till now... i mean not that i purposely went to think of it but it just popped up in my mind lolx. wonderful things the brain does.. well... lets see... friday... was there anything? oh yea. going to the doctor, getting the medicine and then going home to sleep only for half an hour and then heading back to school for training.. we played fish net and first aid band lolx if thats what its called lolx and stupid clement(captain) had to target me when i was one of the two last people who didnt get caught... used to think he was scary and i hated him for being so rigid and always following the book... but yea i can see why he's doing that.. if he doesnt, no one's gonna keep the club organised and going like it is now... oh and i didnt wear the uniform cause it was still wet from washing and i was supposed to be punished and all and especially when nick(president) said his dried in a day so when we were about to head to the stadium i told him i'll owe him the punishment he cause im sick he said haiyo relax!! which means i wasnt gonna get punished!! lolx and on the way to the court cause the stadium had no place... we passed a track filled with earth worms...... ewww...... so naturally i went jumping round the track instead of walking cause of my digust for creepy crawlies he challenged and said if i were to step on any of them i was to down 20 lolx then later reaching the court stupid nick acted like he grabbed some crawlie onto his hand and scared me with it!! bugger... lolx. then was training... lolx gary almost lost it cause i was always training when i was unwell lolx so... i had to be a good girl for once lolx but i ended up training again lolx but not the tidoeus ones lolx. not that the rest of training was really tideous lolx... and *SIGHS!!!* i was chosen for this national day thingy to perform..... and s we had to practice for it.... lolx but it was kinda fun though lolx... then i went home.... and stayed up till 1 just to watch the 2 cute hunky brothers in supernatural and ended up freaking myself out.... lolx
then yesterday.... nothing spectacular happened but daddy bought back a whole lota dvds and i only had to watch dream girls to cry a bucket.... then was DREAMCATCHER!!!! first i didnt get the show but after .... boy was it interesting... and i realised that EARL hickey .. that lead in my name is EARL, if im not wrong.... was actually kinda handsome without that einstein hairdo and bushy mustache lolx... and this is by far the first time i've blogged so much about what happened to my day(s)..... lolx
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 11:12 AM
Thursday, July 26, 2007
the first cut is the deepest.... does it really happen? to an extent.... it does... and at another level... it does a lot of damage.... would i rather have not experienced it and not have the good memories too or would i rather just go on and live without those memories ever being created in the first place... I'd rather i lived that part of my life alone.. without those memories... it was something so hurtful sweet and haunting.... having those memories made me feel so lost in the rest of my relations and having no faith in them.... or should i say... i could never feel the way i felt again before.. like i could never love the way i did.... i dont even know what it means to love now.... it makes me let people down.... i dont want to be that way... i wish i could take it all outta my head... take it all outta my heart.... its sick and irritating to feel that way....
and did i mention... i got into the finals......
and did i mention... i got into the finals......
I would've given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein' lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin me, he's worst
I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
And I'm sure gonna give you a try
Cause if you want I'll try to love again (tryy)
Baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest Baby I know
the first cut is the deepest
but when it comes to bein' lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin' me, he's worst
I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
But I'm sure gonna give you a try
Cause if you want I'll try to love again (try to love again)
Baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest
Baby I know the first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein lucky he's cursed
And when it comes to lovin me he's worst
The first cut is the deepest baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
Try to love again
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 8:58 PM
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Today is a screw up, tomorrow is an uncertainty and yesterday... was just a fickle of my imagination.... hur hur... dream on.... basically every day is bound to be a screw up in my life.... never seen a princess screw up that much???well here's one....
let's see... for starters.... she went to school and had to be up on stage at about... 1145? am to sing... for a school of business singing idol competition and made a total outta herself... then went on to do an IDEA's presentation at about....130? pm where all her nerves ran outta blood to be nervous which almost led her to cry out loud twice from her previous on stage performance.. but big gals dont cry so she held it back real hard...and when she thought all was over, this guy... and boy was he one of the bitchiest guy she's ever encountered with his oh- so-bitchy apprentice, had to ask her questions that his ass thought of... goodness... i really wonder if the contents of his brains are made up of shit... ....OMG!!!!! thank god blogger has this new saving system otherwise i would hafta rewrite and its gonna be another screwed up incident... anyway... back to where i was... that bitch had to make things difficult for her team and not only hers, but for those from his class too... and why? just so that he could use our downfall as a stepping stone to lead him to his success... but na-ah!! Princess aint gonna let that happen... what goes around comes around bitch and bitchy... that sonuvabitch is gonna die a horrible death next week when it's his turn to present. see... that part itself made the day turn ugly...
But no. it aint enough!!!! the heels had to torture princess even further and she had to limp her way to the toilet in the school library located at the 4th floor but the only way to access it was to go to the 3rd floor and climb up! and then, she had to limp her way home.... how nice... and then when she showered... the irritating masscara just didnt wanna come off.. so she almost had to pluck out her eye lashes in order to clean them off... and now she's right here sitting in front of the screen and telling everyone about her oh so screwed up day...
well there were certain little parts that lit little sparks into the dark sky... like for instance... she made her presence known to this certain someone today... and another certain some people said a certain little something that made her feel a wee bit better
so.... yeah i guess that sorta cancels out some of the suckiness lolx.... but pork chop... my day still sucked...
let's see... for starters.... she went to school and had to be up on stage at about... 1145? am to sing... for a school of business singing idol competition and made a total outta herself... then went on to do an IDEA's presentation at about....130? pm where all her nerves ran outta blood to be nervous which almost led her to cry out loud twice from her previous on stage performance.. but big gals dont cry so she held it back real hard...and when she thought all was over, this guy... and boy was he one of the bitchiest guy she's ever encountered with his oh- so-bitchy apprentice, had to ask her questions that his ass thought of... goodness... i really wonder if the contents of his brains are made up of shit... ....OMG!!!!! thank god blogger has this new saving system otherwise i would hafta rewrite and its gonna be another screwed up incident... anyway... back to where i was... that bitch had to make things difficult for her team and not only hers, but for those from his class too... and why? just so that he could use our downfall as a stepping stone to lead him to his success... but na-ah!! Princess aint gonna let that happen... what goes around comes around bitch and bitchy... that sonuvabitch is gonna die a horrible death next week when it's his turn to present. see... that part itself made the day turn ugly...
But no. it aint enough!!!! the heels had to torture princess even further and she had to limp her way to the toilet in the school library located at the 4th floor but the only way to access it was to go to the 3rd floor and climb up! and then, she had to limp her way home.... how nice... and then when she showered... the irritating masscara just didnt wanna come off.. so she almost had to pluck out her eye lashes in order to clean them off... and now she's right here sitting in front of the screen and telling everyone about her oh so screwed up day...
well there were certain little parts that lit little sparks into the dark sky... like for instance... she made her presence known to this certain someone today... and another certain some people said a certain little something that made her feel a wee bit better
so.... yeah i guess that sorta cancels out some of the suckiness lolx.... but pork chop... my day still sucked...
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 9:28 PM
Monday, July 23, 2007
here... my entry ticket......
was at the pet shop the other... Aint it cute??
here's another one 
and another two..
Moochii is still the cutest
jorris and i yesterday in school... 'studying'
receipt of the pizza we ordered.. hur hur im just self amusing
hurs... the empty pizza box... omg its alive!!....i think now i know why poly people or maybe guys in partcular love to go home right after school.... because being in poly... is pure stress and shaggness..... i mean yeah we gals too but the thing is when it comes to shopping... nothing could stand in our way especially when there are those .. hmm... put it nicely... who really love dressing up... lolx.. but pork chop im gonna be one of the guys in school now.... I CANNOT TAHAN POLY.... and oh my tian.... when will some knight save me from the evil economics soccerer, the manic Accounts psycopath and the Statsistics from hell.... and oh god Im so screwed... im actually singing unfaithful???? huh???? ARGHH!!!!! and my semi is on wed?? and like i so knew it today??? just kill me straight... IM SO SCREWED!!!! oh and did i say?? im failing econs.... like really failing econs... this SUCKS!!!!! my life is currently going on a 90 degrees downhill... which means... im literally going to hell... princess in hell... that's a nice thought.... WHERE'S MY KNIGHT!!!!!!!! HE'S SUPPOSED TO SAVE ME FROM ALL THESE!!!!! ARGH!!!! omg this is just so not my day man.... suddenly saw niisan and gst.... the two who im so do not expect to see.... appearing in front of my school gate... haiz.... its just so not my day today... screwed up test, screwed up song, screwed up day... what's next..... a screwed up sleep with a screwed up nightmare? wow that's gotta suck considering sleep being my only comfort now.... haiz..... im so stressed... i really hope i could just drop the singing or get it over with so i can study.... i feel like a useless junk now... crap... hate this so much.. its like Im singing cause of wenny and van cause they took the trouble to sign me up for it... but its like they arent really there to help me... so its really frustrating cause i feel so like a lone ranger now....
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all that wants
And all that needs
All I don’t want to need at all.
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this eveningI give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.
A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
Your finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this eveningI give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight will make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when your blind
It’s better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 6:53 PM
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Ok here i am blogging when i havent really studied for my econs test tomorrow which i am ever so lousy in... ok truthfully, when was i ever good in my work? I'n seriously screwing up my life..... GRRRRR. Anyway, Thanks to Jorris jie i got this cute little Blogskin I mean the other one did up by niisan was cute but i didnt like tat format of having to scroll all the way down... lolx anyway.... went over to meidera however u spell it on friday after going home from wushu... o Bananas... talk about wushu... i think i so screwed my grading... ARH!!!!! just kill me... anyway... went to meidera to celebrate ABBY'S BIRTHDAY!!!! lolx but in the end i went so late that we cut the cake and everyone left... except for me abby hy shrek and mouse... OMG... speaking of which...ROFL!!!! mouse got drunk... okok let's put it in a nicer way... gorgy... lolx after drinking A CAN of beer..... lolx and he was crapping away!!!!!! haiz... i miss those good times... wish we could all do that and get together more often again.... i miss them so much..... and jedd was crazy lolx.. it was so good seeing them... i cant wait till we go for a chalet or something... haiz... and i wanna go to the beach!!!! roar.... cant take it sometimes... guys can be so childish... arent they supposed to be at least a little more matured now???? gosh... grow up... wow to think im actually saying this lolx... and oh my tian... did i say? wenny n van signed me for SB's urban vibe and now im in to the next round? argh!!! and i havent even gotten a song yet!!!!! god what am i going to do!!!
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 10:08 PM
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
i've been such a jerk all along..... i didnt realise how my friends have always been there for me but just in their own ways, to always be my shoulder.... i love them.... no matter the disputes and all... i love them... gosh i cant tell them enough how much i love them... its like i dont know if anyone else would have done things for me like they did... mouse says... no matter how busy we are and no matter how long we dont ever meet... the friendship will forever be there... i dont know how i have never seen it before... but now that i have... i can say im really lucky to have friends like them.... thank you all......
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 11:53 PM
Monday, July 02, 2007
UGH!!!!! what exactly is it with guys?? either i suck when it comes to guys or i really suck at bein a girl that guys fancy..... i mean hey dont guys love to joke? so why the sudden anger when i've been joking about it since forever and and if i remember correctly... he was following up? i mean... hey!!!! UGH FORGET IT! it's so confusing..... maybe i should turn lesbian.... o forget les.... my looks are not excepted in neither world.... this is so frustrating... ok maybe it was me cause i was like half asleep and i was like only registering about less than one third of the message... ok that part is my fault.... but it was all a joke.... and are guys that petty that they would actually refuse to message? i mean yea you're angry.. then cant you just tell me to piss off the way you all say it? GOSH!!!!!! THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!! i mean i already apologised? and you call me a major turnoff? i mean... ouch.... probably hadnt experienced such things before... but i mean hey!!! that sounds bad ok!!!!! a major turnoff.... if it applies to 1 guy in the population.... the whole population of guys would probably feel the same.... so i could forget about living my dreams of getting married and having babies and all.... omg... this sucks
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 2:45 PM
BaBes 0f My liFe
ShouT iT 0ut BaBy I heAr y0u
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FirsT y0u madE me Sm!le
TheN y0u madE me CrY
y0u make this HaRd 0n Me
EvEn juSt to tRy
SunBuRns HurT y0u baD
bUt onLy skIn TheY make u SheD
My HeArT y0u got h0ld aNd dId somEthiNg reAl baD
NoW i woNder h0w lonG it'd taKe f0r Me t0 gEt it BaCk
th!s SiTe i DedIcaTed f0r th0se have and had beeN
To Let fReNs n LovEd onEs kNoW tHe Past and PresEnt Me...