YouRs tRulY
ShaN YeoW ShiYuN
School.
KellOcK,
STC,
Singapore Polytechnic
D.O.B 080690
My L.A.M.B
My Music
My BABES
My FAMilY
Its all me baby, deal with it
WishLisT...
I Basically get AlmoSt all That I want..eVen WhEn i d0nT, Im stIlL a lucky girl
aLL i Wish !s f0r My Family And FrieNds to Be HAppy N healThy
Monday, July 31, 2006
mouse.... the one hu was always there when i needed someone... when i was real down.... i dunno how... he's just always there... even thou sometimes i dun tel him stuffs... es.. the one hu is also there... the one hu looks like he doesnt realli noe stuffs... thx es... thx fr puttin trust in me to tok abt wateva we had toked abt today.. tats called trust es... mouse too... thx fr trustin me to tel me such a great deal abt wat you all r goin thru... n thx fr just bein there.. :)
ytd i was blinded by rage n despair.. n mouse was calmin me down... in the end it looked like i was throwin all my frustrations on him... n to be able to tel me all tat ytd... when he's not a person hu likes to speak too much abt tis... i felt realli happy... mouse.... dui bu qi.... xie xie ni....
n es... today we went to the lib... he was realli tired already.... i cud see... but he stil went becuz he promised... thank u... n we had some serious tok today... n im greatful tat he too.. wud tell me all those tat was said when he's not a man hu shows his emotions so easily... n i noe tat i can be quite unreasonable at times... but they haf always put up wif it... esp es... cuz im mostly always unreasonable towards him.... dui bu qi.... xie xie ni....
besides these... i dunno wat else i can say to them.... thank u....
ytd i was blinded by rage n despair.. n mouse was calmin me down... in the end it looked like i was throwin all my frustrations on him... n to be able to tel me all tat ytd... when he's not a person hu likes to speak too much abt tis... i felt realli happy... mouse.... dui bu qi.... xie xie ni....
n es... today we went to the lib... he was realli tired already.... i cud see... but he stil went becuz he promised... thank u... n we had some serious tok today... n im greatful tat he too.. wud tell me all those tat was said when he's not a man hu shows his emotions so easily... n i noe tat i can be quite unreasonable at times... but they haf always put up wif it... esp es... cuz im mostly always unreasonable towards him.... dui bu qi.... xie xie ni....
besides these... i dunno wat else i can say to them.... thank u....
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 9:57 PM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
I'm writin tis as a request frm mouse n becuz Im thankful fr those hu care fr me=) xie xie ni men. Im alrite now... tats as much as i can say.. cuz as a matter of fact i do feel alrite she made a decision n i missed it in sch today.. but she came online n toked to me so its settled. we' re back... then we discovered sth today... qr's 2 timin..... with tis 2 guys... n one of them happens to be my fren.... at first i tot he got dumped today cuz when she n I(the other gal not qr) were tokin... she said qr broke up with her stead today becuz she wans to chase tis other guy called bryant or sth.. so i immediately called my fren to ask abt it but he said tat they were stil together.. so i told HER abt it then she was like NO!! SHE BROKE UP WITH HIM TODAY TIS MORNIN IN SCH IN CLASS then i was like BUT HE JUST SAID HE'S STIL TOGETHER WIF HER!! then it turns out tat both of us were tokin abt 2 diff guys....... wth... i pity tat guy.... i mean the one she broke up with.. i dunno if i shud eva pity my fren... i mean its nt unfair to him in any way.... cuz... ok here cmes the story... cuz he steaded her to get back at her.. revenge... becuz she played with him before by steadin him fr 2 or 1 day n broke up with him when he realli liked her.... tats short story... but ya.. tats abt it... i feel like a horrible person... i mean shudnt i caution qr? i mean i noe wats gonna happen n yet i didnt tel her abt it n i mite hurt her by doin tat.. but after wat hy said n i tot...* aint she oso stil playin wif ppl now? so like as if she wud get hurt or sth... n just let tis be a lesson learnt fr her... fr flirtin so much.... * so i decided against feelin bad... i mean i noe how he feels la.... its not nice bein played.... n fr god's sake qr... guys r not ur toys. ok forget it i cant be bothered anymore....
im stil pissed abt one thing..... those 2 bitches?? cant call them tat... bastards??? cant call them tat either.... omg even thinkin abt wat to call them makes my blood boil... THOSE FUCKED UP IDENTITY CRISIS SHEIDERS BETTER FUCKIN WATCH THEIR BACKS CUZ IF I EVA LOSE CONTROL OVER MYSELF THEY WIL DIE CUZ SOMEHOW OR ANOTHER IF THEY GET A GANG I WIL GET A BIGGER ONE N IM SO GONNA WAN THEIR LIVES THOSE FUCKIN BITCHES HAD BETTER BEHAVE THEMSELVES BEFORE ITS TOO LATE CUZ IM GONNA GRAD SOON SO RULES WUN APPLY TO ME NO MORE... well at least the sch ones....
im stil pissed abt one thing..... those 2 bitches?? cant call them tat... bastards??? cant call them tat either.... omg even thinkin abt wat to call them makes my blood boil... THOSE FUCKED UP IDENTITY CRISIS SHEIDERS BETTER FUCKIN WATCH THEIR BACKS CUZ IF I EVA LOSE CONTROL OVER MYSELF THEY WIL DIE CUZ SOMEHOW OR ANOTHER IF THEY GET A GANG I WIL GET A BIGGER ONE N IM SO GONNA WAN THEIR LIVES THOSE FUCKIN BITCHES HAD BETTER BEHAVE THEMSELVES BEFORE ITS TOO LATE CUZ IM GONNA GRAD SOON SO RULES WUN APPLY TO ME NO MORE... well at least the sch ones....
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 9:37 PM
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
I cant handle this anymore.... i wanna get outta sch fast.... i cant stand the sight of them... it hurts me so bad to noe that she's there but i hafta treat her like she's not... and noein that she's aware of my presence but she just chooses to ignore it.... it hurts so bad.... y cant she just gimme a signal.... at least.. if she told me... i would accept it as it is... now there's no end... im so confused.... i cant bring myself to do it... it hurts so bad..... but she doesnt noe how much im hurtin.... i see her smilin everyday.... but each day... i go to sch frm a mild to gross mood.... it affects me so bad.... my temper.... my happiness.... its all... fadin.. or already gone... even thou there is a chance of losin u as my foothold forever.... at least it is set in the stone n i cant do ath abt it but to recover n move on... if i eva recover... eventually... i plucked up all the curage to ask u tat becuz at least there's an ans to sth... a closure... even thou i noe i cud lose u... but u just wun let me go even fr tis.....
n to the other person... stop bein childish n wimpy. my blood boils just to see u... one day... if i was eva senseless enuff.... more senseless than tis... hu noes wat i'll do to u... even thou u haf a big gang n i dun.... i'll make sure u die before me..... if i was eva unlucky enuff.. she'll prob see tis entry... n i'll prob get into trouble... but im almost senseless... so i cant be bothered wif things i say...
n to the other person... stop bein childish n wimpy. my blood boils just to see u... one day... if i was eva senseless enuff.... more senseless than tis... hu noes wat i'll do to u... even thou u haf a big gang n i dun.... i'll make sure u die before me..... if i was eva unlucky enuff.. she'll prob see tis entry... n i'll prob get into trouble... but im almost senseless... so i cant be bothered wif things i say...
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 8:26 PM
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
you hurt me so..... so much........ do u noe tat?.... everytime we quarrel..... do u noe it hurts me so bad...... u were the one hu helped me.... when i was so down n pathetic..... do u noe it hurts me so bad when u say i wasnt there fr u... when i tried so hard.... so hard to be there when eva u needed me.... but u dun eva seem to... need me.... the existence of ur circle of frens... they over power me... im realli sorri if u tot i was neva there.... fr u.... im realli sorri.... i left u... cuz ure in good care.... n always was there to spot check.... n u neva seemed down... n when u were i wil ask... but u neva seemed to tell... or maybe u realli werent sad.... to me i noe i tried to be there... but to u it left like i neva was there.... so... i realli dunno wat else is there fr me to do... n if i waas makin ur life miserable... all u hafta do is to take me outta ur life.... just make tat decision n u dun hafta suffer.... but u dun wanna... make any of the decisions... n tat u'd rather leave me n urself hangin...... it sucks... to be left hangin.... it feels like im goin to fall but yet im stil stuck there.... either up or down is still a release to me... so y dun u just make a decision.. so both of us can move on with our lives.....
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 9:41 PM
Sunday, July 02, 2006
O MY GAWD!!!!!!!!!!!! I SOOOOOOO CANNAUGHT BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAT IS HAPPENIN!!!!!!!! BRAZIL IS OUT??????!!!!!! TIS IS SO NOT MY DAY!!!!!! OMG.... WAT IS TIS..... ok althou im in a way not rootin fr them cuz im like in a way rootin for GERMANY... but i stil LIKE tat team n expected them to take the trophy again n like...... WAT!!!!!!! omg nvm there's stil another traumatisin thing fr me..... CHRISTIANO RONALDO...... HE SO TOLD THE REF TO GIF ROONEY A RED CARD WHEN HE'S LIKE HE'S TEAM MATE IN MAN U??? I MEAN WAT THE HELL!!!!!!! NOT ONLI TAT HE STIL WINKED AFTER ROONEY GOT SENT OUT?????? OMG TO THINK I ACTUALLI FELL IN LOVE WITH A JERK! but ok admit it..... he's a realli a very an extremely superfreakinlicious hot jerk...... o yea.... i think blake McGwrath frm so u think u can dance sorta reminded me of him tat's y i was like real fond of him n i think wayne rooney's stupid too i mean he shudnt be so dumb to like go up to christiano in front of the ref n create a commotion rite? i mean tats christiano's objective in a way... to try all ways to make him get a foul out? so he shud be smarter n keep his cool n then find christiano pull him to a dark spot... n beat the shit outta him til his face gets badly bruised n he'll cry cuz his looks r ruined then i'll stop lovin him lolx im just jokin... love is too strong a word on them.... but thou i cant accept the fact tat brazil lost i'd hafta say tat i think the goal scored by henry was nice.... i mean to me.... maybe its just mediocre to those soccer ppl i dunno cuz thou im a soccer fan i noe shit abt soccer.... i onli noe they haf hot guys in them... lolx but everytime i see someone scorin... there's like tis adrenaline rush tats like WHOA!!!! n its like real cool so ya lolx ok anyway.... life fr me now... is cool.... nth much happenin... ok maybe not nth much... n its pretty interestin... but yea... i stil feel sth lackin... i dunno wat.. but mm hmm... n im freakin out.... cuz prelims are rnd the corner n im stil slackin like shit... i realli dunno how im gonna survive.... mel n hy says tat commitin suicide cuz of o's is stupid... but i think its perfectly fine cuz at least there after u dun hafta do o's n better stil prelims..... sometimes its just so tirin fr me tat even the tot of it irks me so.... lolx tats realli ridiculous... but still tats how i feel.... but no! i cant i musnt die before i havent even date some real hot guy lolx just kiddin... too much soccer n fantasy lolx im crazy lolx
I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 10:06 PM
BaBes 0f My liFe
ShouT iT 0ut BaBy I heAr y0u
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FirsT y0u madE me Sm!le
TheN y0u madE me CrY
y0u make this HaRd 0n Me
EvEn juSt to tRy
SunBuRns HurT y0u baD
bUt onLy skIn TheY make u SheD
My HeArT y0u got h0ld aNd dId somEthiNg reAl baD
NoW i woNder h0w lonG it'd taKe f0r Me t0 gEt it BaCk
th!s SiTe i DedIcaTed f0r th0se have and had beeN
To Let fReNs n LovEd onEs kNoW tHe Past and PresEnt Me...