d!rtY liTTle SecRetS

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

thousands..... thousands.... why??? that many?? why????why do you have to take them away??can't you just leave them with peace? they were all happily livin.... why did you have to do that? ok lets say minority of them are not happy livin.. you could just take them away. why must it be that many? you have caused grievance to your own children you inflicted pain on them not only the dead but the livin too.. their loved ones.. now they wanna follow their loved ones too. to heaven or hell either just to take them to see their loved ones once again... is that what you want? more to perish from this world? isn't it already enough? maybe you have your own reason everything that happens happens for a purpose but what is your purpose? to destroy mankind? to bring an end to humanity?ok i think im thinkin too far.... but what exactly is your purpose?

the waves.... so relaxin and peaceful and warm under the sunlight when calm but so disastrous and menacin when raged.... who would have known that it was comin...

I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 9:23 PM

i totally screwed today.... i made a big mistake... i made a friend of mine angry... shit i should'nt have done that... i am like so totally sorry but it was meant to be a joke i mean of course i would give right but i was didnt knew that you'd take it that seriously and halo the conversation is'nt like totally my fault and its like halo the four of us were like already havin a con and you want us to put down just because u cant call in and call you? ok maybe can but es also said no and its like there's four in the con and ok fine lets talk bout other days nobody said anythin bout confrencin usin their phone then how m i supposed to know right! and like i totally didnt even know that your phone could confrence and the con thing today wasnt entirely my fault ok im not the only one makin the decision there.

I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 1:05 AM

Sunday, December 26, 2004

Last night I just wanted to have fun

To go out with my friends

I took my dad's car

I never thought he would find out

But I crashed in a wall

Man I'm dead

I guess it's no use

I'm screwing up ever little thing I ever try to do

I was born to lose

Yeah yeah yeah yeah

God must hate me

He cursed me for eternity

God must hate me

Maybe you should pray for me

I'm breaking down and you can't save me

I'm stuck in hell

And I wanna go home

Last night I had to study for this test

I forgot man I'm dead

And now my brain is bursting out of my head

I can't think I can't breathe

Once again

I guess it's no use

I'm screwing up every little thing I ever try to do

I'm born to lose

Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah

God Must hate me

He cursed me for eternity

God Must hate me

Maybe you should pray for me

I'm breaking down and you can't save me

I'm stuck in hell and

I wanna go home

So what in the world am I supposed to do?

I never did anything to you

So can't you find something else to do?

God Must hate me

He cursed me for eternity

God Must hate me

Maybe you should pray for me

I'm breaking down and you can't save me

I'm stuck in hell and

I wanna go home

(God must hate me)

I wanna go home

(God must hate me)

I wanna go home

(God must hate me)

I wanna go home

(God must hate me)

I wanna go home

(God must hate me)

You can't save me

God Must hate me now

this christmas totally sucks and it sucks to the god damn core.I lost a hundred bucks which was supposed to be a present for me from my dad to get myself a nice gift and i didnt lose it cuz i lost it but i lost it cuz someone stole it.and what's more that fuckin thief is a family member of mine ok maybe if its not in the family then its my aunt's friend daughter. i swear to myself i wil kill her or him if i have the god damn chance i wil make her/him pay dearly lemme just say this i suspect AND TOTALLY THINK its my god damn fucked up cousin i dont give a fuckin damn if iwronged her and i wont feel guilty if i wronged her cuz she god damn deserves that not onli her but her bro too but though i hate him too i believe that he wasn't the one and oh my she will never be allowed to even take a step into my room and that goes to the boy but come to think of it i pity them for havin such well...hmm.... wouldnt be nice to say it ...useless?? parents who cant manage to discipline them well and if it wasnt my aunt's friend daughter who took it.... i dont know but i can't be bothered she'll be returnin to aussie soon so it doesnt matter but lets just hope that she would be lucky enough to have a safe trip home... i would'nt want anything happenin to her parents. they are nice people...

I'vE wRittEn tHe PasT To OnlY hoPe f0r the FutuRe 1:36 PM