hey havent been updatin cuz i was kinda bz these days... i think im being stupid or sth but i juz realized sth... everyone has problems and the reason y some of them seem like they dun cuz they get over it after a few days cuz they haf the sufficient time to get over it but fr some of us... on the road to recoverin, another damn ass freakin thing juz happens and spoils all the hard work and juz makes us feel even worse than ever and in addition the so called frens arnd juz choose to rub it in even more.. ok maybe they dunno wats goin on in my god damn life but so wat? fuck off damn it stop further condemnin my life u wanna see me suffer? well glad to say tat u r! so now juz fuck the god damn hell off and stop killin me further... stop it i had enuff not onli frens r killin me even my own parents r killin me.... all in all.... I HATE U ALL FUCK OFF

back..... was cryin alot ytd... first fr the whole recess.. second third durin class time and fourth oso durin class time when i was tokin to my teacher...cried like storm.... neva knew humans had so much water y i cried??cuz of frens... and things..loadsa things ..dun wanna say... feelin very very bad now dun wanna care y dun wanna noe y...can i hope u r seein tis... i realli wish u cud tel me wat happen... its like all of a sudden ur face turn black... did i make u angry? or was it sth i did to someone else??? or wat? if i did i apologise... sorri sorri sorri sorri.... damn tensed now... exams.. personal stuffs.. bball stuffs.. and others....*sighs* i realli dunno wats wrong wif tis whole world... ok maybe there's nth wrong to it but to me there is sth reali reali wrong.... i noe i shudnt be sayin tis.... but i think life.. is hopeless. meaninless. useless... okok maybe its not tat serious but i think its hopeless n i dun think i enjoyed it or rather...enjoy it...feel kinda wierd typin tis entry.. probably 'cuz i din do it fr a long time i guess..... but i think i shud go now... real tired.. gone...