ok ytd i cudnt write my blog cuz i had a virus and now i dunno where it went to..juz when i needed my blog, it turned away..anyway... ytd sux...i went fr a jog in the stadium wif hui yu cuz i was allowed to and after tat we went to the court and i din tel my mum and dad..then it was like after plaein at the court on the way hme i saw a msg sent by my mum she told me to cal her..and so i did...then she asked me where was i and i said at the stadium and she said then hw cme i cudnt see u at the stadium...then i was stuck..its like she actually went there to see if i was actually tellin the truth???!!!so when i came hme i had to explain to her and i actually had to tel a lie sayin tat we went to the coffee shop to eat...cuz hui yu had to haf her dinner..and then she told me o cuz we went there to find u to get u to haf dinner wif us ok fine..but its like can i haf my freedom to go where i wan..ok maybe im realli at fault tis time to not tel her tat i went to the court..but cant i do my own things?pls i need privacy..i need my own life...ok i dun mind u askin but muz u noe every single thing i do?o my..i juz dun get it..at least i dun go out wifout u noein...at least i dun hang out after sch everyday and not go hme til late at nite...its like look at her..i shant say her name and no offence if u see it.. she goes out as and when she likes after sch wifout her parents' permission and gets back before they get hme so tat they wun find out..i think its like shes sneakin arnd and doesnt get scolded cuz they dun find out while when i get out i hafta tel them the specific place and all if they found me at another place i wud be dead!its like i dunno im tired of tis..ok u all say tat u wanna noe where i m so tat u cud find me ok i trust u but y do u need to find me? ok haf dinner ok tat i gat no objection but if its fr u to spy on me then forget bout it...do u think i like lyin?NO!NO! i dun! but i realli wan to make some of my own decisions myself...ok fr lyin, i apologize but.... ok nvm...i mite stop writin fr awhile cuz of the exams.

tired..gt trainin taday and both sides of my waist aches..dunno y..well i guess im all alone again...hope she doesnt see tis or rather they...i tried to get her to tok to me taday but to no avail..and the other one...i think we r gettin further and further apart...now im feelin lonely...well maybe im not..maybe i stil gat my team...and maybe hui yu and Kor..well maybe but i stil cant say tat im not alone in tis world..ok i stil gat my parents...but hw do u expect me to confide in them when to them these things r defined as childish or a waste of time to even bother abt it?!hax...nvm...i think i need a real good break frm all these stuffs.. but i cant cuz of everythin like sch, exams and all those..tokin bout exams i dun think i wud be able to write frm tmr onwards fr the time bein cuz i gotta study..juz now my mum was rammagin thru my drawers fr some cards and she was yakkin bout those stuffs i haf in it tellin me to throw them away and so on..wow im not tryin to be rude but can she juz leave them alone cuz there are actually stuffs in there which are like...ok nvm...anyway if there's candy in there in which there realli is and she's afraid tat ants wud cme its ok..but my stuff...i gat no idea wat to say bout these...wow i was thinkin tat maybe if i cud go fr a holiday..preferably wifout my parents.it wud be a real good break fr me..

taday's a nice nice day..had tuition n tat bryan n jun hao kept makin fun of me we we toked and luffed alot til we din finish the work in time and ended bein the onli ones left in the tuition centre..stil felt a'lil bored cuz ying xian's sick and cudnt turn up...poor thing..hope she recover soon..actually i think there's nth special taday except fer the fun time at tuition..other then tat, life's a total bore...im tired of sch, nth but boreness..but the lessons r ok..its onli the free time other than recess tat is borin..fer the last few periods i kept totally quiet till.cme.when we were doin our other project, we started tokin bout my fav.subject...singers, bands, songs and all tat..tis has totally nth to do wif our project..in another way u cud say tat we r skivin..:P..but i wil stil say sth...things r stil buggin me...hope it realli gets off my back real soon so tat i becum carefree..i wonder if there wud be a day i cud actually pour everythin out and write it down here..one of my frens said life wudnt be borin if u planned some activites in them.but seriously, i gat not time fer those cuz everyday is filled wif muz-do borin stuffs.. he was there when i needed someone to guide me..he gave me lotz of ways to gt out of the situation im in currently and previously..the thing which makes me miserable is tat i cant get myself out probably 'cuz i dun haf the courage to do so..but i wanna sae tis~~~THX KOR!

real tirin day taday..reached hme at 7 after trainin.ran 5 rnds arnd the whole sch but tat was not so bad if i din haf a headache tat is...real pain..i gta say thx to dada manda fr bein my pole fer taday lol had ta stand froze cuz i was leanin on her..o n the other thing killin me~basketball...nt as in i hate it or ath its juz tat its tough and i've gt like far too much to handle now so i actually break down emotionally fer the past few trainins cuz those trainin days were realli tough n so happened tat my mood was realli foul and all those but not fer today..maybe its 'cuz my mood is better and tat headache left me complainin bout the pain and fergettin bout those other things..wow din noe i writen so much crap...i think i beta stop..o btw..thx to all the ppl hu cared fer me taday esp michelle, jb, zy and dada manda n krystal hu was there at the depress staircase to lend me her ear and shoulder and sharon too...though she doesnt noe much bout these..

k first time writin a blog...writin tis fer 1 particular reason..to get al those useless crap outta my head tis is not the onli thing pushin me ta the edge..ok say lets juz start frm ytd..do the both of them always hafta interfer in wat i do?!i m sayin tis now...PLS LET LOOSE A LITTLE!!!wat type of crap is tis huh?!tis is fer ur own good..if we dun care, wat wil happen to u when u grow up?..ok u can care i dun mind but haf u ever tot tat i need my own space to breathe?my god!stop it already!lemme rest!i tel u if the onli place where i can rest and haf freedom is in my dreams, i m willin to stay there...im realli tired of everythin...pls...i noe u r doin tis fer my own good but haf u ever tot abt the space i need fer myself...i need ta haf privacy too u noe..i need ta haf the rite to make my own decisions too..pls..

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